On stones and Honor

There are many ways of dying. So many ways to die. So many ways. A Pakistani woman died a few days ago. She is dead. She died at the hands of her family. She must have tried to protest or fight off the assault. I can imagine her screaming out her father and brothers name: “Please! Help me! No!”. I can hear her screaming even now. Calling out helplessly. I can almost sense her fear as the first stone cast her body, she must have known what was to come. Looking to her father who has aided in both her creation and her destruction. As she continued to scream the sticks and stones only grew in number and size. They wanted blood. They had come for her blood. Blood to be shed in the name of honor. I see her catching her final fleeting breaths, in pain and agony. I can imagine her surrendering to her fate. Did she pray to God? to Allah? What were her final thoughts as she lay there? Onlookers silent but hungry with shame and a sick desire for a free show. A cheap spectacle to ease their own suffering for a moment.Standing back and watching her soul leave her body, watching her spirit pray love over her defeat. They see it all, hungrily taking it in. And much too soon all that was left was a corpse and a vague story of how a woman loved a man but should not have because her family was against it so they stoned her to death for dishonoring their wishes by loving who she should not have.But now all that is left is a dead woman outside a court house. Ladies and gentlemen, here is justice.

And here I am,

I place the intricate,

yet delicate puzzle pieces of my heart into your hands.

 

Love me with your soul.

 

I give myself freely,

without cost…with price…

only with a need-

 

Love me with your soul

 

I open to you alone,

my deepest wounds, 

my darkest fears…in hope that you will-

 

Love me with your soul.

 

Let your heartbeat caress the mappings of my mind.

 

Love me with your soul.

 

Let the reflections of your joy be  mirrored into my heart.

 

Love me with your soul–

 

That ours maybe a quiet love

A love of little words and actions understood only by us.

So…

Let me love you with my soul.